happy friday to you. today is the perfect day to tell you I love you.
although, so are mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays, thursdays, saturdays and
sundays.
lately, I've been so tired. after a recent confrontation with my sister
and being labeled as "lazy, selfish, a liar, undeserving of trust,
disrespectful and ridiculously materialistic," I've taken it upon myself
to help out more than I already do around the house. study more than
usual; despite the end of the school year nearing. I've realized AP
testing deserves my undivided attention. I've also gotten back into
running. after ending up in the hospital a few months ago, I decided to
use it as my excuse to run from being healthy and active. one thing
remains the same, despite all my slacking, I will never be lazy when it
comes to loving you. it is the only job I wish to never quit and to
never be fired from. Forgive me boss, I'm more devoted than I seem.
prom was last weekend. I went with my only high school sweetheart so
far, Dino. he was a phenomenal date and I couldn't have been happier
with anyone else. were just friends now of course, with him graduating
and me not wanting to hold him back, it was a mutual agreement. we
exchanged a single kiss and it was only then when I realized, he will
forever cross my mind. I'm quite convinced that I wouldn't be who I am
now without him. [not to self, check back to this blog in a few years
and see if I still agree.]
its become so routine that I share a silly observation of a lovely
couple that I just so happen to witness doing 'couply' things. I've seen
quite a few actually, but one stands out in particular. they aren't the
mose attractive or the most average looking. however, together, for each
other, they are perfect. going to seperate schools during the day, I see
them against the brick wall, embracing each scarce minute they have with
each other. it makes me wonder, why don't we all do that? embracing
EVERY moment we have with anyone. with our family, we say, I'll see them
tomorrow. with our friends we plan the activities for the next weekend,
as if were positive we'll see each other. when it comes to loving and
appreciating, assuming is an action to never be taken. be careful dear,
tell the ones you love most that you do so. the heart loves sticky
notes.
its been too long for me to have not been able to open up to another. my
guard isn't even up! I'm too busy being in love with the boy that had me
hesitant to even speak to him in the beginning. the one I didn't even
plan on talking to me in the venue parking lot. the only gentleman that
could shut me up in an argument and actually have me convinced that at
times I was wrong. the one that I fell in love with, the real love. the
love that others only read of. dream of. think of. WISH of. the love,
that I love. I often wait to hear from him, and I often miss the times
when i do. using names would be too obvious. dropping hints would be too
easy. lets see if he can figure out for himself that I am indeed,
speaking of him. hey there boy, I love you. I LOVE YOU. I don't think
I'll ever stop thinking of this boy, this man. if I haven't for this
long, I can only plan on being as much in love with him as I am now, for
centuries more. oye, I miss you.
its friday, put on your boogie shoes and fall in love with your match at
the jukebox. throw rocks at her window fellas, call her up and remind
her that she's special. every one wants to be reminded that someone
cares. everyone wants a sticky note.
I love you and take care. its dangerous out there!
-jLv
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