Child, let me tell you.

Love can overcome any addiction.
Hell, it IS one.

According to my calculations, I face about 10 opportunities daily where I am urged to write myself reminders to be sure that I share with you what i was witnessing.
That means, I'm fascinated with one thing every hour that I am at work, with an additional few subjects in the hours that remain for leisure.
Conclusively, I constantly wish to share every moment of the sun's daily cycle with you, my love.

I was watching Tyler Perry's Diary of a Mad Black Woman the other night.
I think i've watched that movie enough times to recite it in my sleep. Oh wait, i already do.
Anyway, they talked about forgiveness, a lot. Not that, you know, that was the whole theme of the story or anything.
ANYWAY! it suddenly became very clear to me that it's not exactly the best idea to open one door, before closing the other. Why would you bother starting something when you haven't finished something else? Why would you attempt to like someone else, when you never stopped loving another? Why begin an intro, when you never reached a conclusion...food for thought.

Forgive them, For you.
Forgiveness is a wonderful thing, you know. Actually, it's a messy thing. It's kind of like Blame. No one ever really wants to take the blame for anything; and just as so, no one ever really wants to be the first to initiate forgiveness. Faults are constantly up for grabs and no one ever really wants to take it. You wanna know why? It's because we are all too proud. We all have this inherent pride, where, if we admit to being in the wrong, or if we apologize and show our vulnerability, it'd be as if the whole world around us would come crashing down. But let me tell you something about pride. Pride, she's nothing. She will swallow you whole, and when you die, oh, when you die, she'll die with you. And just like that, you lived your life with a false sense of security, with this false mindset that you truly were too good to say, "I'm sorry."
Pride will ruin your best of friendships and your most intimate of relationships. What's so wrong with being sorry, anyway? Nothing. Because when you forgive someone, for WHATEVER it may be, you are doing a world of wonders for yourself. Call it selfish, but I'd want to forgive the world for things that haven't even happened yet if it meant that i'd benefit. You are cleansing yourself of guilt. You are buying yourself time with the ones you love most. Now, i know that sounds foolish - buying time. But, if you think of all the time you'd have wasted because you didn't want to say you were sorry, or forgive someone because nothing was EVER your fault, you'd have wasted...well, a lot of time. I've preached to you before just how precious time really is, already. No need for a repeat. I'm not a grade school teacher. So when you finally swallow your pride, you'll find yourself gaining an abundance of time to spend genuinely with those that matter most to you. Lovely and precious moments to share.
After all, that's what life is. Just a bundle of moments. Sure, a lot of them are pretty lousy, but we manage to snag a good one ever now and then. And those are the one's we cherish the most.

The tricky part is, what happens when you're the one that is constantly apologizing?
What happens when you start to realize that the only reason why you and another are even still communicating is because you apologize incessantly for even being upset to begin with. You apologize just so everything will be forgotten and over with. You apologize just because it gets everything out of the way; like a quick fix. Why should you apologize for feeling the way you do? Why should you apologize if the other person won't even hesitate to prevent you from becoming upset, anyway? I'll tell you why. It's because you care. Because you value your relationships with others so much, that you wont pay the price for their sentimental procrastination. The idea of your relationships deteriorating is so disheartening that you're willing to say sorry for their mistakes. It's the kind thing to do, but not the best. Don't you realize that you're bending over forward and back for someone who won't hesitate to turn the other cheek? "I'm sorry's" are like "I love you's". They are often overused and quickly lose their meaning. Only apologize when you need to. Because when you're the only one saying sorry, you're the only one showing pure love, as well.

I forgive you. Always.
But that's because i'm a professional lover, as well. It's what i do best.
Take care, sweets.
-jLv